God is so good :)

I have to admit that I have pushed God away a little over the past few years. During my parents divorce we didn't go to church anywhere really but I sure relied on him alot. I knew he was there for me when I didn't really know who to trust. When I got real upset I always said to myself "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" and pulled through the heartbreak. Even though it has been 4 years since my parents divorced I still get really upset over things. Their divorce caused me to mature faster than some people my age because I had to be an example for my brother and sister. To be honest I haven't been the best role model for my sister and I should really try to do better. My brother is like my own son it feels like, I know that's weird but he was born when I was twelve and my parents divorced after he turned 1 so i've always been the one there for him. He doesn't constantly have my mom and dad but he's always with me. They are a big reason that I want to be a better Christian example. I started to go back to church when my boyfriend Michael invited me to go to "teens" with him on Wednesday nights. I was very shy at first even though I knew most of the people there I honestly didn't pay attention like I should have. Now that I have been going almost every Wednesday for almost 3 years I've started to grow closer to God. I wish my boyfriend would go to church every Sunday too but he won't. I really want to join the church one day but I'll look dumb asking to join when I don't even come on Sundays. I just, well, miss being close to God. This week we have been having VBS and I have really noticed how close that I used to be to God. God has really tugged at my heart so far this week and I really am set on listening to him and trying to grow closer to him. God is good to me so good and I need to stop and realize that sometimes.