Not that anyone really reads these but i'm back and a lot has changed. Senior year is going great! I love my classes and our Homecoming was a blast!! This year is going by extremely fast thought :(. I am now single. I am now praying I get into Appalachian State University to major in Education.
Over the past month i've realized just how difficult and complicated relationships are. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3.5 years because I honestly wasn't happy and hadn't been completely happy in a while. Now that I look back on the relationship, I had fun and I don't regret it at all. I notice I jumped into a relationship because I needed someone due to my parents divorce. Love is complicated. After breaking up with my boyfriend, I tell my best guy friend how I feel about him and he reveals that he's wanted to date me since freshman year and tells me all sorts of sweet things. Well, things started off going fast but perfect and then he ends it! I don't completely understand but I guess I'm just gonna be single for a while. I honestly don't know how to be single. I really miss having someone to lean on! I've also noticed how precious life is and that we let it pass us by and never really see the big picture. I've grown closer to God. I never noticed how much I missed while i was with my first boyfriend. I pushed a lot of things to the side. I missed hanging out with my friends and I missed becoming me. I love who I am and I wouldn't change me for anyone other than God. With the holidays coming up I kept saying to myself "wow you're going to be alone", but in truth I can actually enjoy the time with my family and only have to worry about me. I can't believe i'll be off at college this time next year! It blows my mind! I don't know what i'm going to do! I will miss everyone soooo sooooo much!!!!!
